The one that got away --

On march 13,2012 .. i lost my beloved grandfather . The one i love the most -- *sigh* it takes me ages to learn accept the fact that i lost him. Since when i was in college, i always wondering what would i do if i lost one of my treasures ( atuk , nenek , ibu and , ayah ) ? i keep thinking and worried because i realised that they are grow older and i keep busy with my college life .. but my mind keep protest and said "NO" i wont lost one of them , i would never let them go . How can i survive my life without them ?? -- and suddenly, the thing that i keep worried about just happened.  Atuk left us without any sign, no one expect it. It just happened that quick and easy. I love you atuk , we all gonna miss you. Nenek , everyone still in shock actually . You will always be in my mind, moga atuk ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yang beriman . Al-Fatihah !

They said I could be anything, so I became a Churper. #ChurpChurp

They said I could be anything, so I became a Churper. #ChurpChurp

awake and alive .

Dear journey , i'm at war with the world, with my on world in my own life. I have lost and they try to pull me into the dark . It's getting harder to stay awake and my strength keep fade away . But then finally i saw the light has come, brighten up my dark life . Alhamdullilah, now i'm awake and i'm alive , now i know what i believe inside . Insyaallah, i stand my ground and never back down . Forever hold this heart that i will give to you and forever i will live for you.

Therapeutic painting !!

Octobers - The month that give us an idea to create this one activity which called therapeutic painting . Therapeutic Painting is something to do with friends when you are stressed out or had a really bad day! You can express all your feeling through the painting which make you feel more relief and better . 

Art allows you to make creative things out of nature. You not only enjoy it, but can also make something out of it, out of reality, the way you want it. Those moments do not always happen, they come in bits and pieces. But when they do, one feels both empowered and humbled. So Far, i have 6 paintings already and this is ...

Few of my paintings ,

It's not that i want to be the only girl in your life, i just want to be ..

-The only one THAT MATTERS. 

ramble.

• I am a bit loud, in “real life” I randomly write but when i write i will write a lot .
• I panic in silly situations, I’m not very confident anymore.
• I have always kept my guard up high, the people that really know me aren’t around anymore so I’m unbelievably wary again..
• If you do take the time to get to know me, I’ll be very loyal and I’ll make you laugh, though my sense of humour is ridiculously dark and I get in trouble. I love cooking so I can make you nice things and I love my friends…
• I like my tea with 2 sugars and the tiniest drop of milk.
• I love to read novels when i get bored.
• I’ve kept every one of them, I have boxes full.
• I love like there is no tomorrow.
• I love the smell of vanilla. I am vanilla girl.
• I adore fashion but i don’t know how to style it .
• I love make up .
• Ditto smoky eyeliner.
• I love little adventures.
• I have a dark chocolate addiction.
• I love Jason Mraz voice.

Between actions and words .

"You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter."

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"You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter."