Stains.

I think that im losing myself completely and i need to fixed this. Lets make this as my wake up call, i wish i can go some place throw away all this shits.. clean up all this stains and make up my mind.

"If patience is worth anything, it must endure to the end of time. And a living faith will last in the midst of the blackest storm."
~ Mohandas Gandhi

Dear FJ,

You came into my life not too long ago and I didn't think anything of it. We were friends and we got along so well, but I never imagined I'd be falling so hard for you. We became very close but yet we were so distant. The more I got to know you, the more I wanted to be with you.

You always made me smile and without you I'd be very different. You have changed me in so many ways. You make me want to wake up in the morning to see what life is going to throw at me each and every day. As we became very close and we talked all of the time,  you have to sacrifice to keep it low. 

I'm sorry for the mistakes, i hope you can be strong and stay with what we had talk before. Thank you for all you have been done, no matter how long time could flies you will always kept in my heart. 

i hurt too much till i can stand the lies, i'm so hurt till i could feel the blood dripping. there is too much brief in my life lately. i wish i could fly away to the arms that i can stay.. keep me calm and stay awake.

Hurt && Pain

“Pain is a pesky part of being human, I've learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can't be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air! We may not have wings growing out of our backs, but healing is the closest thing that will give us that wind against our faces.” 

“Tragedies happen. What’re you gonna do, give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks, you gotta fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive; ‘cause you are. And that pain you feel - it’s life. The confusion and fear.. that’s there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better. And that something is worth fighting for.”

—	Nathan Scott